Emo, emo, emo

I'm feeling emo..struck by a lot of things and can't help questioning a lot of things in my life. I think I've lost the motivation for a lot of things.

Dear prob dun understand. He just thinks I'm thinking too much and trying to kick up a fuss or just being a baby.
But I think I noe wat is my problem. It's the kind of feeling u get when u are faced with the idea that what u have cherished and working toward for years may not be worth it after all. It's the unpleasant reality of shattering dreams and wondering where u go from there after only thinking of one certain direction in your life.

It's the same emptiness and lost feelings I had years back when I almost couldn't make it into mass comms.

Shit.

So what if I'm where I am now? So what if I have what I have now? What exactly matters?

This song is my motivation song of all times. From Mayday of cos. I always think of it when I'm low.

有一天我在想

我到底算是个什么东西

还是我会不会根本就不算东西

天天都漫无目的

偏偏又想要证明真理

别人从屁股放屁

我却每天每天都说要革命

就算是整个世界把我抛弃

而至少快乐伤心我自己决定

所以我说就让他去

我知道潮落之后一定有潮起

有什么了不起

常常我豁出去

拚了命走过却没有痕迹

可是我从不怕挖出我火热的心

手上有一个硬币

反面就决定放弃 嗝屁

但是啊 在我心底却完完全全不想放弃

常常我闭上眼睛

听到了海的呼吸

是你温柔的蓝色潮汐

告诉我没有关系

就算真的整个世界把我抛弃

而至少快乐伤心我自己决定

所以我说就让他去

我知道潮落之后一定有潮起

我不能忘记无论是我的明天

要去哪里

而至少快乐伤心我自己决定

所以我说就让他去

我知道潮落之后一定有潮起

有什么了不起

啦啦啦啦啦啦

明天我在哪里～～～

Decisions, decisions....I seem to make a lot of wrong decisions in life...not a very pleasant thot...

Maybe it's quarter life crisis...maybe..maybe...