Happy Chinese New Year!

Today is the 3rd day of the Chinese lunar new year and these few days have been public hols! Yeah! I went to Dear's hse to visit his parents today and recieve quite a few ang pows from his relatives. But I spent it all on the ktv that we went later in the afternoon, haha. Then we went back to Dear's hse for steamboat although we ate duck rice for dinner because Dear needed some, ahem, rest at home. *wink*

Frankly speaking, this new year has not been a very happy one for me. Cos Dear and I had some differing views on certain issues. Dear and his family expected me to eat reunion dinner with them and his relatives even asked him why I didn't visit on the first day of the new year. And I'm like, why should I be expected to? I mean I appreciate all the hospitality they showed me but all these made me feel like I'm expected and obliged to participate in all their family activities. But from my point of view, I'm only his gf and it's not as if we have been together for years. If I'm Dear's wife, then maybe I'm obliged but I certainly want to keep away the family pressure away now. And I certainly dun feel like spending one whole day with his relatives and smile and PR. I do that everyday at work and I just want a break and spend quality time with Dear in the precious hols. I was really feeling suffocated and pressured by all these family stuff and it doesn't help that possessive Dear kept on whining on how I didn't join them for reunion dinner. Come on, we have only been together for a year!

Feeling that I really should say how I feel, I told Dear thanks for all the love by everyone but pls dun treat me so much like family, all the expectations will make me feel bad. Dear was a little upset, he said it shows I haven't fully commit myself to the relationship. But it's not that I'm not. I just feel that the one I'm commited to is Dear and my sole responsiblity at the present is only to make him happy. It's a bonus if I spend a lot of time with his family, but if not, I can't be blamed too. I dun even get to spend much time with my own family! Luckily Dear understood a little of my stress and I feel much better telling him. Well, we still got our religion issues to solve before we can really move on I guess. Hai. My gal frens say they do participate in a lot of their bf's family activities, I guess maybe I'm just too free spirited le, haha.

The good thing that came out of the family visit is that I discovered Dear's mother makes nice sambal chilli and she gave me a bottle to bring home! haha. Dear's mother's cooking has always been, ahem (again), pretty average so it was a pleasant surprise to discover the chilli. Though I'm scared I won't have to try it cos I dun go back for dinner much. Rem I work in a food mag and always receive a lot of dinner invitations by the restaurants! hee.

Back to work again tml. Argh. It's going to be a long and busy ride for me. The company is holding a food event in April so things are escalating towards it and I can finally get to work on the new issue of the mag!

Looking forward to the weekend!